Negro Versus Nerd

  • Confessions

    Recently I’ve become more accepting of a part f me. A part that I’ve tried to hide from others because I was ashamed of what I was. Changed my mannerisms to fit and eventually led my own way to self hatred of my kind. I knew I was this way since I was little, the way I was in school, my way I acting around other kids, it wasn’t hard to see. So today I bare it all and just come out with it. I’m a geek.

    Geek, nerd, or whatever you want to call me, that’s what I am. Highly intelligent with proficiency in mathematics, technology and high spatial skills. I’m no longer ashamed to hide who I really am. So what I can program, I read comic books, watch Angel, Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Anime. I’ve seen every episode of Star Trek: TNG, DS9 & Voyager, praise the accomplishments of Steve Jobs and read the any and all Macintosh news. I play video games; console, computer and handheld. I mean like role playing games. I use to play Magic: The Gathering on a daily basis.

    I come out today cuz I no longer care what people think of me. I am a black geek and I’m proud of it.

  • Internet Word Of The Day 2

    Non-Descript

    – (adj.) 1. One being nameless or faceless within a group or people. 2. The extra red shirt muh fucka on the original Star Trek that dies when they land on a planet. 3. The group of people that your man/woman hangs around with, but you’re not bothered with tryin to get to know them. Used In A Sentence: 1. “I tried to step to ol’ girl but she was around a bunch of non-descript females yacking bout something, I’ll just holla at her later.” 2. “The club was tight last night, until some non-descript niggas broke off and fucked shit up.” 3. “Girl, I was coming off the EL platform and this non-descript fool tried to step to me”

    Granted its not really an Internet word, but ya know what, its my blog.

  • Hangs Low & To The Left

    Now I’ve usually I keep my personal politics to myself, usually I voice my opinion by voting. Recently though, I’ve been reading up on some things and its seriously starting to get scary out there. Ever since the SuperBowl, there’s a crack down on indecency and the price for clean airwaves is the first amendment. And the FCC scapegoat is Howard Stern. Now yes I am avid listener of the Stern (well not recently, since the servers in my office kill all radio reception) and they’re placing fines for shit that happened in 2001. What the fuck is retroactive fining. Kinda like getting a speeding ticket today for going 50 on a 30mph street last year. So maybe saying “Fuck” is a little too much for kids, even flashing ya right tittie is too much, but kids know a lot more then what we get them credit for (the little bad-asses).

    Now the gay marriage thing has seriously blown the fuck up this year. Personally, I feel that whateva that u’re into shouldn’t fall out into the streets and I don’t care for the ideal of marriage regardless of who does it. I just don’t have a positive image of marriage, but I digress. If people want to get married then they should. I understand the reason for gay people who want to get married outta love and to legally shared spousal benefits. Hell… probably would be the only reason I would get hitched… again I digress. Everyday on Yahoo I see how different states are banning gay marriage. When I see this it really seems so un constitution, and there only explanation is that a gay marriage would somehow corrupt the sanctity of marriage. (Don’t 1 out of every 2 marriages end in divorce, very sanctified). And what really got me pissed was when I read that Black Churches are oppose to this. Its not a civil rights issue. Civil meaning local to the country and rights to marriage and seems like an issue to me. Again I digress.

    And finally… have you ever notice that bible thumpers, those live by the glory of God, ready to spout the books words as law are some of the most hateful and ignorant and evil muh fuckas on this planet. A book which to me, is about love, understanding, forgiving, and following the word of God is being used so horribly. Love thy neighbor, and do not judge but yet ready to tell you that your going to hell. Thou shall not kill, but up on rooftops shooting doctors at a Planned Parenthood. Shit is just bizarre. Now I could go into a whole spiel about Bush, WMD and the war, but my fingers are cramping up.

    But before I go, I was going home after work and I was a red light. There were some ladies in the middle of the street, collecting money for something, I didn’t really notice cuz I was rushing t a job interview. But when the one of the ladies came up to my car, I shook my head not cuz I’m a greedy bastard, but because I had no change. Now I give all the time, even though street collectors are pretty much begging, so when I say I don’t having anything, this lady goes and starts mouthing me off cuz I wont give. That just pissed me off to no end. Now y’all why I got the “pissed face” on the front page.

  • The Truth

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  • Internet Word Of The Day

    Ya-hoe!

    – (noun) 1. A male or female who frequents Internet chat room, particularly Yahoo!, AOL and MSN chat rooms in search of physical gratification . 2. Derived from the words Yahoo! and hoe. Examples: 1. A man with one hand on his genitalia, his other hand on his mouse and his eyes fixated to an overly pixalated video image of which may or may not be a woman’s breasts. 2. A woman who misleads men about her appearance/age/sexual interests or says she’s going to perform certain acts and does not when confronted. 3. A man bent over naked with a cheap Logictech webcam aimed at his spreaded ass cheeks. 4. A white male posing as a female to lure black men into showing him their webcam/pictures.

    – (verb) The process or act of trying to obtain a sexual hook up over the Internet by frequqnting Yahoo!, AOL or MSN chat rooms. Congugation: 1. Ya-hoing! 2. Ya-hoed!

    This was something I had to clarify. Its a term I use quite often especially since I stop using Yahoo Messenger. If you think that you’re a Ya-hoe! or something you know is one, please get them help before it’s too late. And BTW, expected a third post today.

  • Why Am I Just Getting This?

    Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
    If you wake up this morning and feel glued to the bed, then perhaps that’s where you should spend the day, dear Virgo. You have been working hard and long these past few weeks. It only makes sense that your body would rebel eventually. This is a day for rest and relaxation. The office will survive just fine without you. Call in sick, then disconnect your phone and burrow deep under the covers. You’re likely to sleep better than you have for a long time.

  • Okay… I Need A Life

    Been coupped up in thehouse too much. Its getting warmer and I can’t let my job dictate my life anymore. There use to be times where I would be up and sometimes up in the streets til 3 or 4 in the morning and had to be at work at 7:30am. I’ve never been too social but sit, I wasn’t dead either. I need to be out his weekend. I need to get my life back.

  • Just Janky

    Last weekend my car was stolen, and I havent been too upset about, shit… I can’t be upset. If I get too stressed out, my immune system will get weak and I get sick, and with an open head wound and shit I can’t afford that.

    So I’ve been real nonchalant about my car. I figured I be making payments on it for another year, even with it gone (so fucking hood-rich). Anyway, props to the Hammond Indiana police department cuz they found my shit in bout a day. It was actually around the fucking corner up on Stateline road but on the Illinois side. Since it was technically in a another state, a towing company in Illinois copped my shit and is pretty much holding my car for ransom. Like it was my fault my car was stolen and abandoned in streets. Now I go scramble for cash to get my car… Ain’t that the most jankiest shit you every heard of. Its like I found somebody’s wallet and I won’t give it back until they pay me for it… and I’m charging 1000% interest. No wonder people fucking steal.

  • Need To Lighten Shit Up

    Been too somber, too pissed off, too depress later so here a little brief story that I’ve been keepin since I got outta the hospital earlier this month.

    Back when I had my accident, the neurologist had me stay overnight at the hospital, just for some observations and what not. Now cuz I head a head injury, the nurses and doctors kept me up all night. My room didn’t have cable tv, just some basic CBS, NBC ABC, FOX shit. Every two hours the nurse came to give me this IV shit… the IV was in the back of hand and my whole arm was numb. Now I’m the type that if I’m told to work, I’m tired but if I’m told to lay down, I wanna walk around and a nigga was tired of sitting on my ass not doing anything especially if I couldn’t sleep. But I guess even if I could sleep, the the hospital bed was hard as a bunch of bricks and I sleep on my stomach and that shit wasnt happening.

    Anyway… long story short, I finally get to sleep around 5:30-6am after watching A Mad MAd Mad World and some National IQ shit on Fox and I get to dreaming bout a threesome with these two ultra chocolate sistas. I’m hitting ’em both up in my dad and step-mom’s living room cirrca 1996. With the oversize grey couchs and shit, now they have green chairs and blue carpet, anyway. I’m eating some ‘na-na’ on one, feelin on the other. It was a nice ass dream specially since never dream bout a 3some with 2 females. But to wrap this up… I was up in REM sleep and I happen to turn over and there’s a priest standing right over me. I woke up feeling so guilty that I’m bout to have a wet dream up in the hospital wit a major head injury, and there’s a priest standing over me asking the name of my home church. I’m rolling around to get back to my stomach to hide my hard-on and only church I can think of is one I have been to in almost 4 years and not to church I was just at and was bout to join. But I guess hindsight is 20/20. And for the record… I am going to hell.

  • Please Don’t Patronize Me

    If one more person says, “You’re so lucky” or “It could have been worse” I’mma fucking crush their muh fucking skull. This has just been such a bad time for me I can’t even put it into words. I’m tired of describing my accident, I’m still having bad dreams about it, I’m can’t feign smiling anymore, its just so fucking fake. I want retribution but I know I’ll be getting none.

    I’m trying to be positive, I was uploading my cds to the new hard drive I got and the Destiny’s Child song Happy Face came on. The lyrics made me think that maybe shit is getting better, then I get up Sunday morning and my car is fucking gone. Nothing left but oil spots in my driveway. And at 4:45am that song had no fucking meaning to me. There was no sunshine, there was no Happy Face. Good thing I got some comfortable shoes